Failure

I've been thinking a lot lately about what is holding me back from doing more.
Fear.
Fear of failure.
I've realized I'm afraid to try something new. What if it doesn't work? What if it's a big mistake? What if I hurt myself or someone else? What if..?
I sat talking with a good friend about it, and then the thought came to me. And since then, I've noticed a big difference about who I am. Life has been great :)
The thought was:

The fear of failure leads to the failure to succeed. 

Right? If you're always afraid to fail, then you'll never try. Never trying will lead to never succeeding. Never succeeding means not growing, not progressing, not learning.
That kinda bothered me...
Since, I've applied this to my life. I've taken risks. I've been "vulnerable." I've decided to just open up and try new things. And, so far, I've loved it :) I'm still starting this process, but up to now, no major failures yet ;) Just a lot of new experiences, growth, and possibilities.
So, take a chance. Open up a bit. Be yourself :) Don't be afraid to fail. Let yourself make mistakes, because only from mistakes we can learn. And, if we do succeed, imagine the possibilities :)

Thy Will

I was thinking of an old story the other day, and I wanted to share real quick...

It was probably 6 years ago, when my mom was really sick. She was in and out of the hospital. Her cancer had come back. We didn't know what would happen next.
One night, we were all kneeled down in family prayer. It was my dad's turn to offer the prayer, and I am so thankful he did.
He, of course, prayed for my mom to get better and be healed. He started to end the prayer, then stops for a second. He says "We accept thy will," then proceeded to close the prayer.
I don't know why this day left such an impression on me. But it seemed to me my dad had received the inspiration to add that in at the end.
It's interesting, because my mom did not get better and was not healed.. in fact, she got worse. After many friends, family, and ward members praying and fasting for her, and several priesthood blessings, why was she not healed?
It was the will of God.

Since this experience, I have seen the reason in God's perfect plan for this to happen to my family. I received a more solid testimony. I learned to trust in God and His plan. I know families are forever.

I have adapted this same phrase into my own prayers. God's will is always higher than our own. He knows the past from the present from the future, and knows what we need at each moment of our lives. Sometimes, I get frustrated with his timing, wanting my will. But, there's a greater plan. When I trust in His will, I feel happier.

I have seen amazing experiences of people being in my life at the right time, and I being in their's as well. I have been at the right place at the right time. I have met new friends that have impacted my life. Because of God's will.

Because of my experience about my mom, I have been able to help many other people. In the mission, I had a district leader who's mom passed away while he was in the mission. I was able to talk to him about it and give him advice. One companion had a grandfather who got really sick, and also ended up passing away. We had a great relationship, and were able to trust together in the plan of salvation. Another companion, lost her father while we were together. I was able to help her stay strong, and be a witness that better days come ahead. It was amazing to see her change and her testimony to grow.

God's will is perfect. God's will is right. May we all always trust in His will and His plan, patiently waiting for the blessings that will come. Because they always do. :)

I Knew It

One of my favorite quotes by Joseph Smith is "I knew it, and I knew that God knew it, and I could not deny it."

Sometimes, I think we tend to forget the things we really know. That basic knowledge, that can be so helpful in time of need, is often forgotten. Or, maybe not necessarily forgotten, but not remembered or realized.

I was sitting in institute, and the Holy Ghost was definitely present. I feel like I learned a lot this day, but after I thought about it, it was all stuff I had already learned in the past.
After talking to a good friend, I realized that's exactly how the Holy Ghost works. He brings things to our remembrance in time of need. That's what I experienced this day. I "re-learned" some old knowledge, that I needed. And, I know it, and God knows it, and I cannot deny it.

I know that I am a daughter of God. He loves me more than I can imagine. He helps me get through hard times. He sent me his son, Jesus Christ, to guide and comfort me. He is a Father. He has a perfect plan. I sometimes forget this, but this knowledge brings me great joy. I know I have a purpose in life. I know that someone is watching out for me.

I know that God's will is always best. He has everything perfectly laid out, in such a way that we all get the benefit we need. Our trials, the people we meet, and the places we go are all for a reason. This helps me know I can overcome all things. I know can do my best, because it is all for a reason. I know I can do hard things. His will, His timing, and my patience.

I know Joseph Smith restored the Gospel. I think sometimes, I forget how great a blessing this is. Maybe even sometimes, I begin to doubt it a little. How could it be? Well, how could it NOT be? It is true. And all that comes with it. The Priesthood, the Book of Mormon, baptism, sacrament, revelation, prophets, forever families, temples, missionary work, etc. It's something I think I take for granted too often.. that could bring me so many more blessings if I allow it to. All this knowledge should be bursting out of my mouth to share the joy it brings me with others. But, I get caught up with life, and forget. But when I do remember, I do want to share.

Remember how much you really know. Doubt your doubts before you doubt your faith.

That They Might Have Joy

One of my favorite scriptures is 2 Nephi 2:25--

Adam fell that men might be, and men are that they might have joy.

Men ARE (men exist) so that they can have joy. I ponder this often. Our purpose in life is to have joy. God wants us to be happy! But, what exactly does this mean?

In my own experiences, I've learned that even through trials, we can find joy and happiness. Nothing is ever ALL bad. The main one that is constant, is that God is there and loves us. Who can't be happy at that?? He's given us his son, Jesus Christ, to come to the earth, die for the sins and sorrows of the world, that we might live with Him again. Can you imagine that? Someone loved YOU so much, that he would die for YOU, and take upon him YOUR sins and sorrows. Because of this He truly knows and understands what you are going through. This includes any physical or emotional pain, guilt, sadness, suffering, anything. He is always there to talk to, and knows what you mean. Because he went through it too.

I also think of the Plan of Happiness. It's in the name. God has this plan for us, so that we can be happy. He has divinely created you and I, placed us in this earth at a certain time and place, so we can learn, grow, become like him, and be happy. I am a firm believer that there are no consequences in life, it all happens for a reason. Understanding that, I know that my trials are part of the plan. My friendships are part of the plan. My sorrows are part of the plan. My successes are part of the plan. So that I can be happy and have joy.

Sometimes, I get caught up in the redundancy and trivial things in life, and I forget how to be happy. I focus on school or work, and forget that God is there on my side. However, I notice the lack of joy in my life, and quickly change things around. I start to focus myself back on Christ, the Gospel, the church, scriptures, pray more earnestly, and serve others. And, I find this joy. Forgetting the worldly things, and focusing more on Christ and his plan help me experience this joy.

That's why we are here. That is why men were placed on this earth. That is why I exist. To be happy and have joy.

Seek it out, and you will find it. I promise that. God wants you to be happy. If you desire happiness, you shall find it.

Change

I used to dislike change. Very much. But if anything is constant in life, that is change.
I guess it all began to change in my mission. We would have transfers (we could call them "cambios" or "changes" in Spanish), and at the beginning of my mission, I would be stressed out and worried about what was going to happen. I was impatient, anxious, and wondering all day until finally we received our assignments. Then one day, I realized, whether I stress about it or not, nothing will be different. If I will be transferred, I will be whether I'm impatient or not. Then, I realized how exciting change can be. Later on, I began to love transfers, wondering what adventure would come next.
This has since "translated" into my everyday life. I get bored with redundancy. Yes, there are some things that cannot (or should not) be changed, like going to school or work. But, little things within them can be changed.

Let me tell a quick story.
When I got home from my mission, I attended a YSA ward out of boundary from where I lived. I guess it all happened so fast, I didn't want to go to a YSA ward just yet, I felt I wasn't ready. However, I went and visited with a friend one day, and I was convinced by a loving high-council member friend, bishop, and other acquaintances from my YW days and high school. I attended this ward for several months. I enjoyed it. I felt comfortable.
Maybe 5-6 months into it, I started feeling like I should switch wards, to where I belonged. It sounded exciting, like an adventure. I had been wanting a change again, being in the same area doing the same things started to bore me. But, my commodity convinced me to stay. I figured since I didn't know many people there, my church participation would decrease and I would just go to the Sunday meetings and nothing else. And, I didn't want that. Yeah, I know. It's a lame excuse. Nonetheless, I stayed.
Now, just a month or two ago, I was a Time To Blossom Counselor. Here, I didn't know anyone except my friend Taylor who was another counselor, and 2 of my cousins who were participants. So basically no one, in comparison to the 250ish girls there. And I loved it. I felt like I could be whoever I wanted to be: my true self. I had fun! I felt comfortable. I wasn't as shy as I thought I was. People loved me for who I was. One day, after a very inspiring talk, I remembered I had prayed before I left to receive an answer that week to know if I should switch wards or not. I was sitting, pondering about how great I felt and how much I enjoyed it. I was with a bunch of 12 year old girls, and they were my friends, because I was my true self. Why can't I be like this always? Then the thought came to me, "You can! In the new ward..." And I decided right there, to move my records to my new ward.

It has now been about a month since I have been a member of the YSA ward I belong, and I have loved it. I feel welcome. I feel like it's where I'm supposed to be. I have been put to work. I have been able to meet MANY new people and make new friends. When I think about my new ward family, I feel happy. It's just right.
Why didn't I jump at the opportunity for change right away? I think because I was comfortable with where I was. But, there is no growth in commodity. Getting out of our comfort zone helps us progress and allows room for change.

Change isn't a bad thing, if we channel it right. I am taking advantage of starting a new chapter in my life as school is starting, to change. I commit to eat healthier, exercise, use less social media, and work on self-betterment. This change will be for the better, as change should be.

I challenge you as well, to make some changes in your life where they are needed. Whether it be among the above mentioned, or something more serious, I encourage you to make the change. Repentance is change for the better, and becoming more like Christ. Leave the bad, the negative, and anything holding you back. And change.
There is never a better moment than now.

Faith Is The Power To...

Last night, we searched the scriptures, church history, and personal experiences to find definitions of what we can do by the power of faith. Here are some of my favorites:

Faith is the power to use your own muscles, then God's
The key to this one is action first. God blesses us after we first act ourselves, trusting he will make up where we cannot reach. Showing God we are willing to work, willing to do, is an act of faith. We are exercising our agency for a good cause, and he fills in the rest.

Faith is the power to be okay 
Sometimes, we go through hard times. Sometimes, life seems rougher than we can handle. Sometimes, it may seem easier to just give up. But through faith, everything is okay. Trusting in Christ and his Atonement makes everything okay. There is always a better day to come in the future. Always a brighter day. If we have faith and endure, everything will be okay.

Faith is the power to receive revelation
We have to be worthy to receive guidance and revelation. Having faith is one requirement to being worthy for this great gift. When we pray, we are showing God we are willing to do His will, and he blesses us with this inspiration with what to do. I have seen so many times in my life that I only receive the guidance, when I am willing to act. We can't "trick" God into getting our way. I often catch myself praying for specific events to happen, and they don't, and I miss out on the bigger picture. However, when I pray for His will and am willing to do as he has planned, I receive more revelation and guidance in my life.

Faith is the power to perform miracles
"For if there be no faith among the children of men God can do no miracle among them" (Ether 12:12). Faith is the key to miracles. Sometimes, we think the people in the scriptures saw miracles so often, and we do not. This is not true. How many times has a prayer been answered? A loved one saved from danger? A feeling to change something? A fast answered? These are all miracles. God loves us today and blesses us with these miracles. But first, faith is needed. Faith preceded every miracle. If you have faith, you can perform miracles as well. In the Attribute Activity in Preach My Gospel, under faith, it says "I have enough faith in Christ to accomplish anything He wants me to--even miracles if necessary" We can do miracles through faith.

Faith is the power to move mountains
The scriptures tell us that the Brother of Jared had faith to move mountains. I believe this to be literal, but as well has symbolic truth. Mountains often represent trials and hard times. When we have "faith to move mountains" we have faith to overcome. We have the faith to not only MOVE the mountain, but to understand the mountain. It doesn't seem much like a mountain when we are looking forward to the blessings and growth at the top. Moving the mountain could also mean to put it behind you, after you've already worked to climb over it.

Faith is the power to make weaknesses strengths
Ether 12 promises us that through faith and humility, our weaknesses become our strengths. Christ can help us do this, when we work to better our weaknesses. The key word here is also work, for faith requires action. If your weakness is patience, try to be more patient through prayer and action. If your weakness is being shy, try to talk to someone new next time you're in a social activity. Whatever your weakness, work to make it a strength by DOing. I can testify through personal experience that some of my weaknesses have become strengths as I strive to do better and build God's kingdom.

Faith is like a little seed. If planted, it WILL grow!

God, Bless The Broken Road

Last week, my family and I took a trip to California. Like usual, we drove. And also like usual, all 6 (of the 8 in my family) of us kids had our headphones in and listening to our own music to pass the drive. I listened to some of my old music for the first time in a long time. As "God Bless The Broken Road" by Rascal Flatts came on, I listened intently to the lyrics. I never really paid attention to what the words were saying. I especially loved the first verse:

I set out on a narrow way, many years ago

Hoping I would find true love, along the broken road

But I got lost a time or two

Wiped my brow and kept pushing through 

I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

So, this song is sorta a love song... but I think with a different perspective it is applied to every aspect of our lives. 

We set out on the path of life, getting lost here and there. But, every experience we have, points us back to where we should be going, as long as we keep enduring through the hard times. 

I think a lot of times, we struggle when we get lost and think the only choice left is to give up. However, this is not and never true. We are never too lost to go back. Never. Ever. Just keep pushing through, I can promise it will be worth it in the bigger perspective of things. 

Something I have learned in life, is that trials bring growth. The only way we can learn and progress is through something hard. In school we are required to put forth an effort to complete assignments and study. At work, we need to finish our tasks and get along with our co-workers. And in life, we need to push through trials and endure to the end. It is a truth we see in every aspect of our lives. Looking back at my own trials, I see growth and progression afterwards. My testimony is stronger. I trust more in God and His timing. I know I can do hard things. And when another trial comes, I know I can overcome it. 

Here's an example. My mother passed away 5 years ago. During that time that she was sick and after she had died, it was SO hard. I thought I would never get over it. I thought it would never get easier. Luckily for me, my father had a great perspective through this trial. He was optimistic towards the future and would ask "Where will we be in 6 months from now? a year? 5 years?..." and we would think of how we wanted to be. I wanted to be happy. I wanted to make the most of the hard time. And with this goal and vision, I was able to do so. We can't get anywhere in life without a goal and a plan. During this time, I kept a journal. When I look through that journal, and see how my thoughts and feelings were, I can see how I have progressed. I can honestly say that I am happier now. I learned so much. I was able to learn how to take care of home responsibilities as I sort of took on the "mother role" as the oldest child and only daughter. I watched out for my younger brothers. I pushed to succeed in my schooling. I went on a mission and was able to help those around me who were going through similar trials. 

I don't say this to boast, I have no intention of boasting. I say this, because I can testify that trials make us stronger. God knew that I needed this specific trial, at that specific time, to grow. He knows what YOU are going through. Right now. And he knows the purpose. Trust Him. Rely on Him. HE is "blessing the broken road" to lead us back to Him. You can do hard things. Christ is there to help. Always. 

So next time you find yourself on this broken road, thank God for the experience. Thank him for the growth and progression that you will see in yourself afterwards. Thank him for trusting you to endure through these trials. Then, "wipe your brow and keep pushing through."

Don't Worry, Be Happy

The other day at work, I had a lot on my mind. I was worrying about school starting soon, frustrations, relationships, and everything I had to do. I was thinking of things I wanted to change in my life, and how I could do so. And on top of it all, we changed schedules, starting an hour earlier (=less sleep).
One of the ladies I work with, mentioned to me, "You don't look very happy today."
Ouch.
I have always heard that from our facial expressions people can see the mood we are in, but it became real to me once someone actually said it. People normally tell me that I'm always happy and smiling... I had never really considered if someone said otherwise...

I remembered a scripture I found once in my mission. Doctrine and Covenants 136:28-29

If thou art merry, praise the Lord with singing, with music, with dancing, and with a prayer of praise and thanksgiving. 

If thou art sorrowful, call on the Lord thy God with supplication, that your souls may be joyful. 

God wants us to be happy. If we are happy, we should show him! We have SO much to be happy about. And if we aren't... he tells us we can ask him, and he will help us be happy. I realized that I was worrying about way too much, most of which I had no control over... so why worry??

Like it says in 2 Nephi 2:25,

...men are that they might have joy

We exist, so that we can have joy. It is one of our purposes in life. God is a Celestial being, which we are striving to become, to participate in pure and everlasting happiness. Why not practice and enjoy what we have now, so we can show him gratitude for what we have? If we delight in what we have now, imagine the joy we will have in the life to come!

I used to be happy all the time. I enjoyed laughing, smiling, playing, enjoying, etc. I was positive and optimistic. But, somehow, I managed to let some of that go, and give in to my doubts and worries.

I decided in that moment, I would hide all my own worries and fears, and just be happy. Happiness brings light, and light shines brighter than fear and darkness. I could better uplift those around me, and in result, become uplifted myself. Even if there was something I worried about, I would hide my negativity with a smile. This is hard on my own, but I know God is there to help me. He wants us to be happy. Only through him, we can truly BE happy.

I challenge you to do the same. Leave the worries behind, trust in the Lord, and be happy. Ask Him for help, He WILL help. Seek the positive. Enjoy life. Be grateful. Leave the things that are competing for your attention, that are keeping you from true happiness. And last, don't forget to smile. :)

Walking In Sunlight

This past week, I was a counselor at Time To Blossom, a YW conference in Arizona. Most of the conference was focused on being a light to others and how to be uplifting. The thought came to me, that I should start a blog. That I should use it to share goodness, give inspirational thoughts, and record my own thoughts and feelings as well. 

These are the girls I was a counselor over. Don't you LOVE how happy and bright they are!? 

Thinking over a few possible titles I would like to choose for this blog, I decided upon My Soul So Delighteth. I have always loved this chapter in the Book of Mormon, where Nephi lists several things in which his soul delights. This blog will include some of the things in which my own soul delights, including the gospel, friends, family, my mission, the scriptures, etc. 

Today, I would like to talk a little about walking in the light. You see, for me, having faith was never too difficult, I guess I was just born with that gift of the Spirit. However, I know for others, it is a little more complicated. We always hear that when we "walk to the edge of the light" into the darkness, the light follows. But this is easier said than done. I was stuck at this point this week. In a few different aspects of my life, I felt like I was lost until I had guidance. I didn't know what else I could do, until I received some inspiration. I was just waiting for someone to tell me what to do next. This week though, as we were enveloped with the Spirit all day long, I started to feel more confident, that I can make my own decisions. God trusts us to make the right decisions. Sometimes, we don't receive guidance until we make a choice ourselves, and then he will confirm it. Or take us somewhere else. Either way, we must take that step in the dark. Take that leap of faith. Guidance always comes. That I know, and that I promise. 

Helen Keller said "When we face the sun, our shadow always falls behind us." When we look to Christ for help, when we focus our lives in him, the dark and uncertain shadows are behind us. Life is not always easy, but it does not have to be as hard as we sometimes make it to be. Striving to endure, desiring to be better, and working to follow Christ helps us walk in the light. And as we do so, we are promised that He is always there with us. 

But how do we do this? 

Here things that I do personally, to help me stay focused and walk in the light. 

-Read the scriptures every day. I do not believe there is a "minimum" amount of time/pages/chapters as a standard. I believe it to be whatever you personally need. 

-Pray, twice a day, at least. Talk to our Father in Heaven. If we don't communicate to him, he will not be able to communicate to us. 

-Attend the temple whenever possible. Again, there is not a minimum for how often. Just however often is a sacrifice for you. It is definitely worth it though, to feel this Spirit and to be in the House of the Lord. It brings us peace, tranquility, answers, happiness, joy, ... 

-Limit social media. Yes. That's what I said. Don't get me wrong, social media is not a bad thing, but I know for me, sometimes I would find myself losing SO much time, gawking over the best of everyone's normal lives, comparing it to the worst of my own. I didn't feel good about myself after. I do have these accounts, for a couple reasons. 1: to stay in contact with friends/family. 2: to flood the earth with goodness. I try to post gospel/testimony/church related things every couple weeks or so, hoping it will touch someone's life. 

-Spend time with friends/family. These people are there for us, and love us. They help us become who we want to become. We can remember our goals and potential around them. 

-My favorite: SMILE! Be happy :) Having a smile makes us glow from the inside out. What better way is there to walk in the light, than to be shining at the same time?? 

Do you have any other ideas/suggestions/things you do help you keep walking in the light? 

I hope you enjoy this blog, and I know I will enjoy writing it. :) 

Make it a lovely day!